Me Before You.

The reason why I picked this book up from the library was because I saw the trailer about this movie; it brought tear into my eyes. Strangely, the trailer was filled with laughter and love, but it touched my heart and the next I did was going on to library’s website to place a hold on the novel. I have become much more emotional since I have been in a positive relationship.


Yeah, the kitten does not like to look at the camera lol

*Spoiler Alert!

*The book touches some sensitive subjects; however, I am not going to go deep into that.


Generally speaking, I like the story and I can say that I relate to the main protagonist, Lou (Louisa), a lot. I was like her, living in my confined world. Did not think much about my future; allowed my dreams gone wild but never really put them into action; and lack of confidence, thinking that there was nothing I could do because I did not fit into that category. However, at some point my thoughts had changed. Like Lou was pushed/forced by Will to open her horizon, I started challenging myself because I have met my boyfriend, and I want to be better. I want to be a person that can be relied on, in any kind; and become a person who is responsible for herself, not fully depend on other people for approvals and happiness. Although Lou did not like those ideas at first, she was amazed and realized how ample her abilities and the world are. I was very happy for her to finally recognize.

About Will, he was in a very difficult and complicated situation. I do not blame him for what he had decided; in fact, I probably would want to do the same if I was him, if my family gave me the authority to make a decision. I felt a bit upset when Lou kept trying to change Will’s mind, to be honest. I understand her feeling, how could I bear someone’s death when I care so much about him/her and knowing that they still have lots possibilities? But at the same time I do not want to see them suffer. If they had tried, if they had thought thoroughly and discussed it openly, in a calm mind, then I do not understand the point or any right to stop them.

That is my thought. I know I will be crying to see them leave, but I know they will be in peace and I will keep my life adventurous and fulfilling.


We Have Always Lived in the Castle.


Yes it is a library book.

Like I mentioned on my previous post, I decided to read this novel is because I have seem CutiePie Marzia recommends it many times, and also I am alone for these four days without my boyfriend around. In stead just jamming myself with schoolwork and internship project, reading would serve my days well.

I finished this book today and after led my thoughts digested, I want to talk about how I think about Shirley Jackson’s final novel.

*Spoiler Alters*

*It is just my initial thoughts about the story, I believe many will change after reading other people’s review online*

I have to say, it is truly a great story. The atmosphere builds up effectively and quickly once the last sentence of the first paragraph is read. I could feel the tension in the town when Merrycat went for grocery shopping for her beloved sister Constance. Just based on her narration, base on Merricat described her journey to the town and the people’s reactions toward her presence, I felt so uneasy and wanted to push those people away, and let Merricat did her shopping peacefully. I can’t understand how much hatreds they have to turn against a teenage girl like that. I was particularly disappointed about Stella who Merricat thought of, in her imagination or wish, sparing her live while others are dying, laughed with Jim after she stepped off of the store.

The tension and discomfort disappeared when Merricat locked the gate and walked along the path to the house. I really loved this part up until their cousin came and brought disruptions. I admired how simple yet fulfilling their life was in their family’s house. They had regular tasks for everyday and they were very clear on their responsibilities, who should do that and who should not touch that. They cleaned the house on Monday each week, dusted every corner on the floor, and made sure everything was on its place as it was six years ago. Constance tended a garden where grew vegetables, fruits, and some flowers, so besides meats, eggs, and milk, they could support themselves with the food that grew in the garden. Other days, Merricat would go around the fence, which their had built to prevent villager from walking into their front door, checking the pedlock was lock and tiding the wires if they were loose to make sure they are secured. Yes, their life is confined; however, it is the only way to keep them safe. Most importantly, they had enjoyed it, a lot.

Until Cousin Charles came and everything was falling apart. I could totally understand the anger and threaten that Merricat had toward him. I myself was so into the story and the characters which made me want to be a ghost in the house and drive Charles away. All he saw was the hidden fortune the family had and neglected the richness that the sisters and their uncle had had.

The story ended openly, I am not sure what will happen to the sisters. However, I do hope, as they kept their life in the house, the peace and happiness will be with them.

Dream House


In about 3 months, my boyfriend and I are going to move to a new apartment. We kind of have an idea where we want to live; however, it is always fun to check out lots of different floor plans in different buildings, if it was not for “searching a place to move-in,” but dreaming.

I would love to have giant windows in the living room, so that every morning we can enjoy the sunlight. I would put a love seat against the wall next to the windows and a small sized table before it. Round shaped table would be really awesome. And bookshelf, it would be placed either beside the sofa or the wall across to it. A fireplace would be pretty awesome, too.

One of the rooms would be our office, where we can play PC games together or working on our own project. So I guess the room will be pack because I will have all my art stuff store in there. I might work in the living room some times as well if I needed a bigger space. If possible, I really really want to have a giant desk which has drawers and shelves. On top of it would be my new desktop and drawing tablet, along with printing paper, color pencils, and watercolor brushes, and so many other things!

Aw, I am so excited right now just by imagining my dream house : D

The other room, might be smaller than the office, would be our bedroom. It would be a pretty simple room that only has the tatami mats and futon where we sleep on. A wooden drawer would be there to expand the space of the closet. Oh, I would decorate the room with tiny light bolts, lanterns, or some sort of lightning things.

It would be so great and lovely. I cannot wait for our new life at a new apartment to begin. So many adventures await for us!